Overwhelmed.

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I knew it would happen, it's only been a few days. I've had such a sense of peace about my decision to finally, finally, get clean. I knew it wouldn't be easy...and after all...it's only the 5th day, but so far it has been. It's the longest I've made it without a drink in YEARS. This afternoon though the peace is subsiding...still there...still "want it" but I'm getting overwhelmed. What if I can't do it? What if I'm just in a phase?
I know of course it's just my brain playing tricks on me. I have to do it because I have finally accepted that I have a problem. It's still overwhelming though. I haven't had to feel feelings...like ever? Ugh. It's a daunting task.
One day at a time. I know that's all I need to do. Just get through the weal moments. This too shall pass.
I found this article about "Functioning Alcoholics" -
http://goodlifenoalcohol.... - it is ME to a T. TO A "T". I've done pretty well for myself considering everything I've done TO myself.
I want to live life. I don't want to go through the motions. Continue the cycle. Over and Over and Over and Over again to the detriment of my health, my marriage...my kids.
This to shall pass...